My Determination

Everyday, I try to get out of it.
Everyday, I fail.

Each morning, I try
Each evening, I realise I have failed yet again

Each evening, I wallow in a sense of failure
Each evening, I convince myself to try again

Am boggled and weighed down by my failures
Awed by my successes
Determined not to give up

Everyday, I will try again
And one day, I will succeed

This

I am calm and collected
I can rage, rant & nag

I am level headed and cool
I can be unreasonable and angry

I am easy going and agreeable
I can put my foot down and make my own decisions

I am compliant and managable
I can be wild and untamed

I am sweet, cute & lovable
I can be a diva

This is who I am.

Attention

Look at me, Lover
For once, take a good look at my face
Look deep into my eyes and read the message
That I wrote to you months ago

You finally realise that am no longer here
I left a long time ago, for I never wanted to come
Tried to tell you but you wouldn't listen
You were too tied up, too busy making up a fantasy that never was

A new chapter awaits, a new story, a new beginning
Open your own, as I open mine
For our stories are no longer intertwined
I got East, you go West

Farewell dear friend
You finally paid attention

I woke

From a deathless death...and a sleepless sleep
I woke

Without realising death had been so close
Threatening to swallow me, to consume me, that I would be no more
I woke

To the light of my destiny
And to God's purpose
I woke

To a beautiful life
Never ending joy, energy abounding, desire to be
I woke

I woke
Because the Almighty wouldn't give up on me
Nor give me up to a deathless death and a sleepless sleep
I woke

Because he lives
I woke